By sister-initiate Radostina,
Plovdiv, Bulgaria (Originally in Bulgarian)
I decided to write this confession
in order to help other people get out of a desperate situation.
Due to circumstance, I have
been unemployed for three years. That alone is sufficient
to depress anyone. In my case other factors also contributed
to that. I withdrew into myself and became absolutely indifferent.
In the mornings I could barely force myself to get up.
During that time, I met the
local contact person and began to practice the Convenient
Method. After a few months I was initiated. The meditation
helped me to see many things more clearly; it gave new meaning
to my life. I realized that I had to pull myself together,
to mobilize all my will in order to get out of that condition.
I began to get involved in different activities, although
it was unpleasant for me and it took a lot of effort on my
part. I tried to have no time for gloomy thoughts and self-pity.
Gradually I found pleasure in these activities. I got to know
cheerful and optimistic people and I, bit by bit, regained
my self-confidence and sense of humor. I changed my attitude
towards God. I was raised an atheist and have not been a believer
for the most part of my life, but now that has changed. I
am convinced that God hears my prayers, as I have received
answers to many of them. In the most difficult moments I remind
myself that I am not alone. I am teaching myself to think
positively and to enjoy the little things in life. I am grateful
for all the good things that I receive daily, for my gifts
and abilities (no matter how insignificant they are), for
my health, for my loving and supporting parents, for my true
friends, on whom I can thoroughly rely, and for so many other
things…
My life is seemingly the
same. Only the way I perceive it is different. My outlook
of the world has changed entirely. Of course I have my dreams
and aims like every other person, but even if they do not
come true, that will not be “the end of the world”
for me. There will be so many other things that I can enjoy.
Now I work with pleasure
and inspiration. I try to give my best – that’s
a necessity for me already. I believe that now I am much stronger
and more prepared for all the challenges that life will bring
me.
The change that happened
with me due to Master and the meditation is a real miracle!
Thank You, Master, for the miracle of my life!
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